1. |
State of Mind
01:11
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Imagine a state of mind
That you've never seen before
Where everyone can be happy
Where no one wants to die
Imagine a state of mind
That you've never seen before
Where everyone can be happy
But you won't keep me up for long
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2. |
Insomnia
02:44
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All eyes on me tonight
I hurt myself today
But I'll be fine
Another bullet lodged inside my head
Another sleepless night beside the bed
Bent from all the rules
You can't keep giving me
A dream so far that'll never come to be
I can't break free
You won't make me
But you'll see
That you won't keep me up for long
But you won't keep me up for long
Yeah, you won't keep me up for long
But you won't keep me up for long
Yeah, you won't keep up for long
Day two, are you starting to see?
The empty thoughts that are getting to me
Another mindless night inside my head
Another stream of the endless red
Hopeless at the thought
That I'll ever be me
It's getting closer you can't take it from me
I can't break this
You can't save me
'Cause you'll see
That you won't keep me up for long
But you won't keep me up for long
Yeah, you won't keep me up for long
But you won't keep me up for long
Yeah, you won't keep up for long
Why is it so hard to stay alive?
Listen for once
Why is it so hard to realize
That I suffer in silence?
But you won't keep me up for long
Yeah you won't keep me up for long
But you won't keep me up for long
(Won't keep me up)
Yeah you won't keep me up for long
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Another day's passed
And just a blank stare at the wall
And you can imagine
I'm losing my mind
As I am trying to find
The way to fix that's all behind
But as everything goes
You know I try, I try and I try
And I've just about had it
But truth to be told
That my folks will say hold
Because all my dreams are a waste of time
Mother says you need to go to school with passing grades
Father says you need a good-paying job to pay all your bills
To be a uniform member like the other people
So I told them I want to live the life I'd like
But not the life where I would die
I tell them 'bout the other people
What happened to the man who's lost himself?
He's rot away
What happened to the young boy's mind?
He follows the same fate
I'm losing control
As everything gets shot down
I'm not living this life for you
I dream too, you know
And I plan to reach them one day
This isn't a path for two
It's always the same
It's all the questions that get me stuck in your loop
It's always unfair
It's all the ways you control
And all the ways you have us bind to our seats
They have you by the neck again
And I tell them
I won't let you strip me of my dreams
Because you couldn't pursue your own
All of the lights
They blind me
But I've no use of my eyes no more
I'm stripped apart of my life
So don't let the wolves get a hold of you
I'm losing control
As everything gets shot down
I'm not living this life for you
I dream too, you know
And I plan to reach them one day
This isn't a path for two
Close your eyes
Tell me why
Deep in your heart
Why can't the broken have dreams anymore?
Close your eyes
Tell me why
Deep in your heart
Why can't the broken have dreams anymore?
If I could find a way
To show you why
What this means to me
I'm losing control
As everything gets shot down
I'm not living this life for you
This dream is my chance
And I will reach it one day
I'm living this life for me
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4. |
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Bury me to the ground
'Cause where I lie, I won't be found
The emptiness all around
It keeps me safe and sound
From you
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5. |
Carmen
05:05
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I write to you this letter
From the darkest corner of my heart
I want to hear about you
How are you? Hello
Things fell apart and now that you're gone
Things haven't felt the same these past few years
Tell me why all the dreams I've gone through
That plague inside my head
Since you've been dead
Can someone tell me why?
It's been years since you left
All the pain I've gone through
And the memories that I've kept
Nothing's left
Can someone tell me how?
I still can dream about your voice
And maybe one day I'll see
That I can still have a choice
Where have you gone?
Can you hear me?
Far above me
I'm alone again
Will the screaming ever cease?
Can you hear me?
Wherever you are
You cannot just leave me here
Take me away far from here
Oh, if you could just see
The monster I've become
You'd get away from me
Just like the rest of everyone
Can you hear me calling?
Can you hear me calling?
Can you hear me calling?
(Your vacant eyes see right through me)
Can you hear me calling?
(Your soulless eyes cut right through me)
Can you hear me calling?
(Your vacant eyes see right through me)
Can you hear me calling?
(Your soulless eyes, your soulless eyes)
Can you hear me calling?
From the lowest point of my heart calling
It haunts me
(It haunts me)
I'd never think I'd miss you this much before
But your vacant eyes see through me
It haunts me
(It haunts me)
Can you hear me calling?
From the lowest cries of my life ending
It haunts me
(It haunts me)
I'd never think I'd miss you this much before
But your soulless eyes cut through me
It haunts me
It haunts me
Can you hear me?
Far above me
I'm alone again
Will the screaming ever cease?
Can you hear me?
Wherever you are
You cannot just leave me here
Take me away far from here
Oh, if you could just see
The monster I've become
You'd get away from me
Just like the rest of everyone
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I don't wanna feel again
I'm burnt out of thoughts (no)
(She is the one that will fucking kill us all)
I'm running out of patience here
When does the good part start? (oh)
(She is the song that will devastate us all)
Then bury me
If we will fall
Is this goodbye?
When we said forever, no
Coming from the bottom of my heart
Is this farewell?
When we failed our promise, oh
She got into my head again
I can't hold on for long (no)
(She is the one that will fucking kill us all)
She makes me feel a different way
A way that feels less wrong (oh)
(She is the song that will devastate us all)
Then bury me
If I fall for you
Is this goodbye?
When we said forever, no
Coming from the bottom of my heart
Is this farewell?
When we failed our promise, oh
'Cause you bury me
I'm too broken to fall in love
So bury me
It's what you do best
It's what you do best
So when you kissed me for the last time
I felt death on my lips
Despite the swing of your hips
Is this the way it's gotta be?
It's so wrong
So when you kissed me
Was it for real?
This is goodbye
We broke the promise, no
This is farewell
We failed forever, oh
I wish I hadn't met you at all
(She is the one that will fucking kill us all)
(And she is the song that will devastate us all)
(She is the one that will compromise us all)
(She is the one, she is the one)
'Cause she was the love that truly got away
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7. |
Stay Away
04:08
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Awoken to a cold sweat
When my eyes set on a sight to behold
Swaying in the moonlight
Awestruck at your beauty
Your shadows start to whisper
And I cannot help but notice
It's easy to think otherwise
But you cannot fool me easily
Oh, your addicting movements
Have me torn between what's wrong and right
And I cannot help but hesitate
As you hold my heart just for the night
Would you dance
With a man with no self-esteem?
Would you fall in love
With a man who couldn't love himself?
Would you leave me
When I'm stuck in my darkest hours?
Or would you stay away
When I shut all my doors again?
You're all I've ever wanted
As you send chills right down my spine
Drowning in your holiness
Make me feel complete again
You lead me to the rhythm
And I take your hand right to my soul
Completely overwhelmed by you
As our shadows become one tonight
Oh, your addicting movements
Have me torn between what's wrong and right
Enslaved in your grasp
Tonight, you make everything feel so right
Would you dance
With a man with no self-esteem?
Would you fall in love
With a man who couldn't love himself?
Would you leave me
When I'm stuck in my darkest hours?
Or would you stay away
When I shut all my doors again?
Would you watch me lose
Myself and all the ones I've once loved?
Would it be possible
To mend the broken heart I burden?
Did you ever think
That we would spend the rest of our lives
Chasing the love
The love that never went beyond the bedroom?
Why did I think that you'd be mine?
Why did I think that you'd be mine?
Oh, lover
Oh, lover
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8. |
Monotony (Interlude II)
02:02
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Today has felt the same as yesterday
And the day before and the same before that
I have stared at this broken clock
For what has seemed to be for years
What is the point of living?
If living has me fighting to feel alive?
Reaching for a purpose that will never be?
I'm so scared
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9. |
1998
04:09
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You run away from me
So you don't have to see
The pain and all the misery
From all the days I've cried
To all the times I've died
You cover all the times you've lied
When I was 8, you left me at the side of the road
Wishing I could turn back the time
When I was 10, my face was shoved into the ground
A kid who just wanted some friends
When I was 12, you took away the only one
I would call my only friend
When I was 13, Death told me
It was too soon to leave
So when I was 14, I felt rage for the first time
As the blade ran through me
It really stung
But I felt a sense of satisfaction
Fuck
All of the things I'll never see
From all the shit that's happened to me
From all the times I've broke
To the words that made me choke
There is no end to my demise
When I was 16, I was pushed away
By the one I thought I trusted
When I was 19, I lost the will to live
From all the thoughts of suicide
So when I was 20, I overdosed on the pills
The pills to help with the pain
I had lived
But I was never the same since
Fuck
All of the things I'll never see
From all the shit that's happened to me
From all the times I've broke
To the words that made me choke
Now do you understand?
So let's slow down
Let's slow down
So why don't we slow down?
Let's slow down
I am a failure
But only in your eyes
You are no savior
So this is where my soul dies
So let's slow down
Let's slow down
So why don't we slow down?
Let's slow down
Now at 22, it seems to me
That I have troubles waking up to be
Living another day is what it seems
To reach the will the live's another dream
Coming from 1998
The broken soul from '98
Coming from 1998
The broken kid from '98
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10. |
Cold
04:52
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Oh my God, it hurts
My life feels like it holds no meaning
And I cannot keep up at this pace
I question my worth
But I feel like this is going nowhere
They'll always love you when you are dead
And it won't get out my head
I've never felt so alone
I feel so sick and empty inside
Where have all my feelings gone?
Another flaw I must embrace
I'm so cold
I'm so cold
Home is where you feel most safe and sound
Away from all your harm
But where can I call my home
If I don't feel safe in my own damn head?
Oh, father, is it my turn to die?
I never asked you to save me
'Cause where the fuck were you
When I cried and prayed for you every night
But when I wished for death
He was immediately at my door?
Slit my wrists again so I can feel
Slit my wrists again to see if I still bleed
There's constant ringing in my head
The paranoia wants me dead
You're gonna fail is what dad said
Well I'm gonna give you what you want
Don't look at me, it's not my fault
And God if you want me
Then come and fucking get me
What the fuck are you waiting for?
I'm bleeding out fast
I've been through all this shit before
You left me so fucking cold
The emptiness pains me inside
I hope my departure won't hurt
So please remember the better times
I'm so cold
I'm so cold
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11. |
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Awoken to a cold sweat
When my eyes set on a sight to behold
Swaying in the moonlight
Awestruck at your beauty
Your shadows start to whisper
And I cannot help but notice
It's easy to think otherwise
But you cannot fool me easily
Oh, your addicting movements
Have me torn between what's wrong and right
And I cannot help but hesitate
As you hold my heart just for the night
Would you dance
With a man with no self-esteem?
Would you fall in love
With a man who couldn't love himself?
Would you leave me
When I'm stuck in my darkest hours?
Or would you stay away
When I shut all my doors again?
You're all I've ever wanted
As you send chills right down my spine
Drowning in your holiness
Make me feel complete again
You lead me to the rhythm
And I take your hand right to my soul
Completely overwhelmed by you
As our shadows become one tonight
Oh, your addicting movements
Have me torn between what's wrong and right
Enslaved in your grasp
Tonight, you make everything feel so right
Would you dance
With a man with no self-esteem?
Would you fall in love
With a man who couldn't love himself?
Would you leave me
When I'm stuck in my darkest hours?
Or would you stay away
When I shut all my doors again?
Would you watch me lose
Myself and all the ones I've once loved?
Would it be possible
To mend the broken heart I burden?
Did you ever think
That we would spend the rest of our lives
Chasing the love
The love that never went beyond the bedroom?
Why did I think that you'd be mine?
Why did I think that you'd be mine?
Oh, lover
Oh, lover
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