I hope you remember me when I'm gone

Thank you all for coming tonight Please remain seated as the service is about to commence We are here to honor and remember a fallen friend and a loved one "Those who walk uprightly enter into peace; they find rest as they lie in death" We do not know of his actions and his motives for this to have happened But he now rests in a better place No matter how hard you try You can never escape the devil

Hey I hope you're doing okay I've tried to reach to you But all of my efforts were all in vain Wasn't it enough? I just lost my best friend I tried I tried but all it did was make things worse I guess I lost my nerve You cried As silence fell between us Time was up It's hard to watch you go You were there for me And I wasn't there for you Constantly failing you What have I done? Like a plague, lover Love is a play, tell me What do you want, from me? What do you want? How long has it been since Everything fell apart? Would you still forgive me If I told you that I'm sorry? You were the only one to truly understand Now you're gone I was there for you You weren't there for me Constantly failing me We fell apart Chip away All our prior mistakes, then we See that the love Had faded so long ago How long has it been since Everything fell apart? Would you still forgive me If I told you that I'm sorry? How much longer do I have to endure all the pain? Will this be the reason For my plead for my forgiveness from you? I'm sorry Please don't go I'm afraid Of what will happen and become of us Please stay a little longer So I can hold you in my arms just one last time We promised forever But how long does forever last?

She seems so distressed What a beautiful sight There's a look on her face That I can't distinguish between anger or hate Unlike you So unlike you Your eyes swelled up with tears Defeated, so broken An easy prey for me to feast Oh, this girl is something else A broken girl with no regrets You approach me with a thing in mind And I'll help you If it helps you to forget Let's just skip to the part where he breaks your heart again And I could give you the reason on why you should trust me Do you trust me? Just one time Just one time echoed in her thoughts He doesn't have to know As she let him onto her Oh, this girl is something else A shattered girl with no remorse As I play pretend you give it all to me Lover You always come back like I've said so To the place where you seek validation And as the tension between us increases There's no turning back now is there, pretty girl? Oh, just let it all out, my love No one is watching, it's just you and me As the darkness surrounds us No one ever gets to take you from me And you see that with every touch that you give So come a little closer And let us forget everything You're mine just for tonight As you fall in love just for tonight You're mine just for tonight As you fall in love just for tonight

Liar! I sit alone in this tragic abyss Where the damned come to mock you And all laugh behind you (Drag me down) And everyone points all their fingers at me Calling names, calling friends Telling them about me How everything fell due to actions that seemed too surreal I guess I know what's coming now (Oh) I guess I can't escape this time around Help me I'm falling again Everyone knows that it's all my fault ('Cause I'm a liar) When the whole world's against you There's no choice but to fall in line I reach out to anyone that would listen to me But no one believes They all claim I'm insane So if you open your eyes then you'll see what you've done But everyone points all their fingers at me Saying that I fucked up No matter who I tell, no matter the words Where have all my friends gone? I don't know, I'm alone Oh my god the insanity Reflect upon every tragedy So I let you go It's the love of a liar that kept you from killing me Liar! I know that I shouldn't have fallen for this Now I know That no matter what happens We both slowly fade in the end And all I want is for the voices to stop 'Cause they tear me apart Listen to me! Everyone knows that it's all my fault ('Cause I'm a liar) When the whole world's against you There's no choice but to fall in line Can't you see that I'm a liar? So let me go (Liar!) 'Cause I can't do this anymore The lament that's expressed in my eyes hold no meaning when I'm a Liar! Liar! Liar! Liar! Liar! Liar! Liar!

As the night draws closer, I know that I am not safe Because the moment there is silence you always find a way back And I know that there's no point in anything that I try To save myself from you Rage. Pain. What do you want from me? This isn't better than the days before this one As the emptiness engulfs my soul I lose my mind And everything gets caught in this hopeless facade This always happens to me Why does this happen to me? Fuck you, I guess there's no more reasons now All alone and within my thoughts Defeated and lost Then I hear the bastard that fucking started it all: You can never forget What lingers in your head Help me find myself I cannot take this anymore The emptiness is slowly taking over You can't help me anymore The pain and death is what you'll pay for Love. Hate. It's all the same to me I'm losing my mind but why the fuck do I even need it now? Meaningless significance No point in a resistance Whatever you do will all eventually come back to you No actions that you'll do Can suffocate the feeling Of the loneliness that's killing you Unless you're fucking killing me Because I complete you And you need me No matter what happens While I can escape from you You can never escape The other side of you Help me find myself I cannot take this anymore The emptiness is slowly taking over You can't help me anymore The pain and death is what you'll pay for No more, please stop The dreams and thoughts get worse and worse And I can't sleep now Because I can't escape the day that You have left me Left alone with my thoughts And I hear the bastard screaming It's all your fault It's all your fault It's all your fault But all those fucking thoughts in my head Keep me up every single night (I can't sleep) I want to claw your face open and rip everything out (Get out) Get rid of this memory (Get out) And be free for once (Get out) Because I can't fucking take this anymore (Get out of my head) I just can't do this anymore As it gets harder to live a new day Let me live for a moment Oh, this small sense of solitude and safety Keeps the demons away for the night But it never lasts forever Because oh, they all come back And I've told you once before That there is no point in fighting back Because you just cannot win And I'm so sick and tired of all this bullshit That all amounts to nothing No matter what I do, you're always there You never leave And I can't fucking breathe I can't fucking breathe I can't fucking breathe And in the end he always says: You can never leave me I'm with you forever

Everyone is happy Break away and see my true pain

(So) You never learn, don't you? (God) What the fuck have I become? (Please) There's no more reasons (Help) Because no one is there anymore (Me) 'Til the very end 1, 2, 3, 4, go! Time and time and time again I never got you listening Apathetic towards your dive into insanity And now look at your face So filled with hatred and rage Leading to the fall of you Benighted, (enlightened) We're the impending doom that kills All of your innocence Reflections, (objections) We're the delusion of your better self And happiness Our paths collided Headfirst to our self destruction And that's when you decided That you would kill me Just so you could win I'm suffocating When I'm face to face with the one I hate the most He laughs at me Taunts me And I don't know how much more I can take of this All the ghosts I thought I'd never see again Gather 'round to pin me back down to the ground As they taunt and stare and laugh it all around, They merge and lock into the ugly shape of me It never stopped You never learned, now look at you And it's all your fault Crossed the thin line you tread upon To made us enemies And you've done nothing to stop this You're guilty, (you're filthy) You walk alone in this sad world that you call a home Your time's up, (your life's up) You jeopardized your life and think to call yourself a man? All you've ever fucking wanted Is for me to bow down to my knees Admit defeat and Yet somehow, we managed to fuck it up Free my damned soul Because I've become so fucking deranged I see everything Hear everything The walls are closing in And I can't get out All the ghosts I thought I'd never see again Gather 'round to pin me back down to the ground As they taunt and stare and laugh it all around, They all merge and lock into the ugly shape of me They ask me: "what do you truly want?" But when I proceed answer, they all start to run about So we both carry this guilt that will follow us all the way to the graves Oh, fuck... Go! Lover, (liar) Fuck you and your shit excuses Tell me, (deceive me) I'm completely torn apart from the insides Love me, (leave me) It's what you wanted Save me, (kill me) So I severed my own heart and surrendered Fucker! Yeah! Everytime I look into the mirror I'm terrified at the reflection staring back at me

She was the answer to all of the doubts that I had, and I lost her She was the light to the fire that I had snuffed out, and I couldn't keep her No matter what I had tried all went wrong in my head just as I had feared so So as the old saying goes, if you love something dearly you have to let it go But Who am I? Who am I? Who am I for falling for your pretty eyes? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I for falling for your pretty lies? But look at what we have done now A mess that cannot be fixed now Don't let the mask fool you This was getting us nowhere Do you see now? We only said goodbye with words As you stared back at me with tired eyes A life that was never meant to be When everything dies Who am I? Who am I? Who am I for falling for your pretty eyes? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I for falling for your pretty lies? I tried to fix everything, all in vain, through my shame With the outcome all the same Because all hope was lost long ago Like it was never there Intrusive thoughts have gathered And shattered what had remained of this sanity But no need to worry, my dear The one who dies in the end was me I trusted everything you've ever said 'Til the end But I shouldn't have 'Cause these are the lies that you hide to keep me in place (Keep me in place) I wish we were together, forever But you wouldn't even call my name As the sun sets for the last time We gather to depart from the hope that could've been I have become the product of my own self hate I don't love you I loved the person I thought you were Because of that, it was the last kiss That will forever haunt my dreams I guess it doesn't matter now Because you died in my eyes

It's been weeks since I've felt anything And I don't know how much longer I can hold this out My vision's fading out My mind is going numb And I have lost control of the wheel Of this thing so called life My one and my only resolve To take my own life To end all the constant pain If it means that I could finally be free Because tomorrow is just an empty promise we can never keep Because tomorrow is just another struggle for another day Goodbye I'm going away So I don't have to tell you I'm okay anymore My soul was ripped away Everything feels the same So obsolete Sitting away in the dark Did you believe in me? Like I believed in you? We were vulnerable right from the start As we told ourselves we'd be okay, we only tore eachother down I know I did you wrong I know I made mistakes But please don't blame it all me for trying to protect you I know we can no longer be I know we can't help I know this is what we want Well then why are we both still suffering in the end? Because all the love was just an empty promise we both never kept Because all the love was just another struggle if it was never there Goodbye I'm going away So I don't have to tell you I'm okay anymore My soul was ripped away Everything feels the same So obsolete Sitting away in the dark And I hope you remember me when I'm gone Because I'll remember you Not in this lifetime Oh, not today Not in this lifetime Oh, not today I'm sorry So let this world take me apart Let this fucking world rip me apart Remember when we first held hands on the way down the mountain that night? We didn't know why, but we kept holding them Remember our first kiss right down the hall before the classroom bell rang? You took out the words right out my mouth Words I would never speak again, my love Words that would make me choke upon saying nowadays I had so much left to say But I ran out of time When flames died out I had no choice but to go It's like Oh, oh oh Oh, oh, oh I had a really weird dream where I got you at three pm, loved you at four, and lost you quarter till eight But everytime I try to get near you, you become a blur that I cannot reach No matter how much I tried Let me go So I can't hurt you anymore Scars remain The hurt never left, so it's caved away Time and time I've told myself That it was probably for the best But everytime I see your name I start to wonder if it was all worth it You are the melody stuck in my head and I can't help but keep singing And I can't tell you anything anymore Now all I can say is that I hope the times we've had were something special to you Because it's time for me to finally let go Now that all that's left are all the memories of when you loved me And now that all that's left are the damn memories of when you loved me

Hey I hope you're doing okay I've tried to reach to you But all of my efforts were all in vain Wasn't it enough? I just lost my best friend I tried I tried but all it did was make things worse I guess I lost my nerve You cried As silence fell between us Time was up It's hard to watch you go You were there for me And I wasn't there for you Constantly failing you What have I done? Like a plague, lover Love is a play, tell me What do you want, from me? What do you want? How long has it been since Everything fell apart? Would you still forgive me If I told you that I'm sorry? You were the only one to truly understand Now you're gone I was there for you You weren't there for me Constantly failing me We fell apart Chip away All our prior mistakes, then we See that the love Had faded so long ago How long has it been since Everything fell apart? Would you still forgive me If I told you that I'm sorry? How much longer do I have to endure all the pain? Will this be the reason For my plead for my forgiveness from you? I'm sorry Please don't go I'm afraid Of what will happen and become of us Please stay a little longer So I can hold you in my arms just one last time We promised forever But how long does forever last?